there are songs I’ll never listen to again cause the weight of my hate for your weight bearing down on me is just too strong, just too strong sometimes I cry when someone asks me out to ramen cause I can’t face the traces of your face looking back at me it went on too long, way too long it’s automatic the way you cloud my head with your memory you’re so charismatic but you’re min-maxed to bullshit I want to be free there are songs I’ll never listen to again but you can’t take all the things— that make me the way I’ve always been you can’t take lord of the rings and you won’t win this game Jammin James it’s weird cause I’m so strong and awesome but I let you lay the ways that I say that i ought to be inside my head, in my head I shut up cause I didn’t want the gossip, but my shrink she says the things I think get the best of me and I should let it out instead, so I let it out instead it’s a kind of magic how you follow me around from an entire different city and it’s kind of tragic but I hope you’ve grown a lot since the days that you hurt me I don’t care if you are happy now, I just hope that you are victimless I don’t care if you are happy now, I just hope that you are victimless there are songs I’ll never listen to again but you can’t take all the things— that make me the way I’ve always been you can’t take lord of the rings and you won’t win this game Jammin James

It started physical But there's no shame there I was what you needed and I was happy to stay there you said I was your constant, your ideal And I started to think that the thing we had was real The days turned to years right in front of our eyes You kept me locked up here, I felt like a prize you said I was the best you’d had and I clung to your word I wanted to be what you needed, and for you I was standard. I was lost for so long but you showed me who I am I would never be wrong if I was your kilogram But now it's all over - If your calculations are correct I'm more than a number - And that is why we're wrecked  I know it makes sense I know you have needs But what do I do now What about me Could you really replace me with nothing but numbers? I suppose that you can But who will I be if I’m not your Kilogram I’m searching for meaning in your eyes but they’re blank there is someone else, I know it. somebody named Planck I know it makes sense It’s logic, it’s smart but I did nothing wrong do you not have a heart would you let a committee of strangers tell you who I am? and will you really be you, without your kilogram?

I let things bother me that I shouldn't let bother me and I feel sorry like I should be stronger I know I shouldn't listen to the insults or the heckles but I listen and they all stick with me longer  My friend Michael Bain told me this is because we're evolved to remember the things that endanger us If I was an animal searching for food I would always be vigilant for things that are dangerous So if when I am in real life or reading the comments I'll always remember those who cross the line  And not all the wonderful women and children who tell me I've helped them by speaking my mind If it is negative I'll memorize it fast Because I'm sensitive, not just a badass I am sensitive, I am a badass I act like I'm cocky I have a persona cause I don't want to seem like I'm open for feedback But that's just because I internalize everything …that I should redact  I don't know if it's clear that that's just who I have to be  I love my friends so much, I love them all more than me  It feels like they all know just who they each want to be  And I'll always feel lucky that anyone talks to me  (i wanna say…) Let's start a band that just yells at the man and never has a Facebook page and never does signings I'm so scared about emails from moderate straight white cis males that I stop myself writing when I feel like I'm whining Don't tell me to calm down, don't tell me it will pass I am still sensitive, I am a badass I am sensitive, I am a badass If you haven't yet realized that we are political, you haven't listened so we will start yelling I often want to just burn down the world, sometimes I'm an anarchist, sometimes I'm a pacifist  I just want all of us to love each other and listen when somebody tells you they're hurting  I want us to maximize joy and equality instead of what we're earning I'm a survivor, and if you're a survivor too We want you to know, that both of us believe you You have the strength, and though all of the scars will last… You can be sensitive and still a badass just say it now, I am sensitive, I am a badass

there are a million reasons you can’t do it there are a million roadblocks standing in your way if you give the world one excuse, then it will agree with you you simply can’t make anything today but there are a million steps that you could take this minute there are a million tiny things that you could do there are a million mistakes there are a million hot takes and the only one who can share the genius your heart is you Now is the time for fearlessness! Getting it right is not the point as long as you create you have no money, you have no time no paints and no paper, fine just make a little progress, take a small step forward, we can wait Now is the time
 So go ahead and  Do everything try everything be everything go and get lost in the world and do not be afraid go and fill up the world with all the things you’ve made you’ve got to find a way around  to be the person you’ll become they say time changes things, but  actually YOU’ll be the one that changes them Now is the time for fearlessness! Getting it right is not the point if you persevere art is the gift of truth art is the gift of you art is the gift of reminding everyone the reason that we’re here Now is the time

my dress is muddy, my skin is bad i’ll call you buddy, i sort of want to be a dad i’m not curvy, and i’m not slim i don’t wear makeup, at home, on planes, or at the gym i’m not weak, and i’m not strong i cry often, if you know the words then sing along i am a woman, none of those things disqualify me I hear a lot of voices saying I’m doing it wrong, but please just…try me i like being a lady, and I don’t need to be the picture of what someone thinks that means though it might help you know just what to do with me and you say in turn that would help me succeed — who cares I crush on ladies, I crush on dudes it is a sex crime, to hack someone and share their nudes gender’s performance, it isn’t binary or real if you don’t like that, i do not care you’ll have to deal you gave us dolls and then you told us they were dumb you told us we’d get hurt if we tried to have fun you see the problem, women know math you can’t tell us to do a thing, and then when we do it laugh boys will be boys, is a disgrace and though you tell me things are changing, I am not willing to wait cause it’s a problem all around the world every day people are punished just for being girls — no fair I am a women, I’m doing it right / I am no matter what I do I have pants and hair and dirt and I am not here to please you I have goals and plans and dreams and I am not here to please you I have talents strength and words and I am not here to please you

My prom was awesome I have no regrets Now that the Catholics all have empty nests I can tell you honestly  it was all gay as hell I don't know who invented the bottle that spins but I know it’s a fun game that everyone wins when you play it with closeted queers it’s a love carousel when nobody thinks that it’s real to be bi your hometown gets filled up with all sorts of lies I’m sorry for all the straight roles that I failed at portraying but Lord grant me patience and Hugh Grant me grace i never knew love til I looked in their face when they told me with tears in their eyes that this wasn’t just playing that isn’t what happened but it’s what I remember don’t tell the host I don’t want to offend her but I’ve never felt stronger while loving so tender and we tried so hard but we were still wrong about gender bicycle / pancake / omnipotent / queer pick a prefix that fits you I’m glad you’re still here Me and God hate the people who tell you your feelings are fake But the first person who made me feel good to be tall Who made me feel real in a whole way at all wore the wrong kind of clothes that TV told me I should be right for gay weddings in Boston showed it was ok if I hadn’t known that I might not be here today so let’s try telling kids that their joy is a thing we will fight for that isn’t what happened but that’s what I remember when we started telling truths at the end of december we made the worst daiquiris ever to spill from a blender and we tried to learn but we were so wrong about gender

I don’t know when it happens, but at some point in the past there is nothing and then the universe just starts I don’t know when it happens, but at some point in the last two years we started on a path that leads to two broken hearts what happened next - in space, everything starts moving out, and between all of the planets is a big and empty vacuum what happened next - somehow our bed becomes thirty miles wide it’s impossible to see that we’re still living in the same room it’s weird to think, there was nothing in the whole universe, and then molecules were everywhere it’s weird to think, the way we haven’t touched in months that we we ever together, that we were ever a pair and I resent the way your molecules are everywhere we thought the next stage would be a house after a party after a dress after you got me a ring but instead we’ve grown apart we’ve grown apart we’ve grown apart but babe, since the big bang so has everything grown apart

I wanna give my love to you all day But sometimes I come up empty My heart just doesn't hold charge The way it did not so long ago I wanna give you love the way you give me yours So full and gently But my heart just isn't working right I think it may have broke It may have broke over the summer When I let someone betray it I thought that it was safe But someone drained my love away I let him drain my love away And it's hurting me to say it 'Cause the thing I want the most Is to give my love to you each day I wanna give my love to you all day But sometimes I come up empty My heart just doesn't hold charge The way it did not so long ago I wanna give my love to you all day But sometimes I come up empty My heart just doesn't hold charge The way it did not so long ago My heart just doesn't hold charge The way it did not so long ago

CHORUS: I like comics and spaceships and catses and I’m barely holding the panic in I’m afraid of eye contact and taxes bartender, please extra gin The battery’s low on my phone so I’ve gotta get home pretty fast My future’s messed up by student loans and bad boyfriends all messed up my past my screen’s got a crack in the middle I can’t selfie, my phone is too full now I can’t clear it, not even a little but I have to keep on living somehow (CHORUS) it’s a Friday and I’m all alone I wanna call you, but it’s your turn, you’re next I can see when you type on my iPhone but you never send the damn text I’m insecure but I try to pretend - that makes me mean which I know is isn’t right I’m jealous of my lover’s female friends so tequila is on me tonight! (CHORUS) I got on the wrong bus and it’s moving but I don’t want to admit my mistakey can’t get worse, so I guess it’s improving let’s just see where this fuckin’ night takes me I work harder than I really need I won’t give myself slack til I try it But I’m afraid if I ever succeed I’ll be too damn depressed to realize it

I don’t need your party / I totally get why I wasn’t invited don’t even worry / I don’t feel even a little bit slighted and I guess if I wanted to go to your party I shouldn’t have slept with all of your friends though you would agree that I was the good guy if you had just seen those relationships end but that’s fine I don’t mind I’m moving to juneau I’m getting the fucking hell out of this state I’m going to Juneau there’s no one in alaska I already hate Juneau - we’ll look at the northern lights juneau - we’ll see all the stars at night and when I’m hanging with hikers and fishers and moose I won’t even be thinking of how much I really miss you it’s a beautiful city I’ll have so many friends and I’ll never get bored they’ve got their own glaciers the capitol building and several bookstores and while I am viewing and making art I’ll forget how it feels to just fall apart I’m walking in slow-mo away from regret the rubble is everyone I’ve ever met but that’s fine I don’t mind I’m moving to juneau I’m getting the fucking hell out of this state I’m going to Juneau there’s no one in alaska I already hate Juneau - we’ll look at the northern lights juneau - we’ll see all the stars at night and when I’m hanging with hikers and fishers and moose I won’t even be thinking of how much I really miss you The City and Borough of Juneau is the capital of Alaska. It is the second largest city in the United States by area. There were 31,275 people, residing in Juneau of the 2010 census. there are no roads connecting Juneau to the rest of Alaska or to the rest of North America (due to|because of) the extremely rugged terrain surrounding the city. This in turn makes Juneau a de facto island city in terms of transportation, since all goods coming in and out must go by plane or boat! I’m moving to juneau I've run out bridges here I can burn I’m going to Juneau I'd rather just leave than grow, change, or learn Juneau - we’ll look at the northern lights juneau - we’ll see all the stars at night and when I’m hanging with hikers and fishers and moose I won’t even be thinking of how much I really miss you I really miss you I really miss you